This article originally appeared on the website “War Stories” on Memorial Day 2019. The author hits a home run with this analogy of the Vietnam War. He places readers into the heads of our Warriors, offering them a glimpse of what we endured after the war. And then, he reminds us all of what Memorial Day should be. Take a few minutes to read what he had to say.
By Spencer Matteson
“After a year I felt so plugged in to all the stories and the images and the fear that even the dead started telling me stories, you’d hear them out of a remote but accessible space where there were no ideas, no emotions, no facts, no proper language, only clean information. However many times it happened, whether I’d known them or not, no matter what I’d felt about them or the way they’d died, their story was always there and it was always the same: it went, “Put yourself in my place.”
― Michael Herr, Dispatches
Death is something we hide from. In our society, we pay people to do the job most of us would never do. We pay handsomely for others to tend to our dead. We only look at them after they’ve been cleaned up, dressed up, made presentable – in other words, made to look as if they’re still alive and sleeping peacefully. And if that’s not possible, we simply close the lid on them.
In war, soldiers don’t have that luxury. We who have been to war and are combat veterans were subjected to the extreme violence of the modern-day battlefield. We saw firsthand what M16s, hand grenades, artillery shells, bombs, napalm, and other means of killing we’ve invented can do to a healthy, young body. In addition to creating the mess in a firefight, we had to clean it up as well – all while dealing with the grief of losing good friends and fellow soldiers – men killed in unspeakable and grotesque ways. It was hard – physically, psychologically, and spiritually.

Many of us were unable to cope with it, were not able to get through it, and return to anything like a normal life. Thousands of Vietnam veterans ended their own lives rather than live with the memory of it. Others tried whatever they could to forget – alcohol and drugs usually, but in the long run that only messed them up worse. Still, others simply went insane and parted ways with reality. War in many ways is the “gift” that keeps on giving. It continues to claim victims years after the bullets have stopped flying and the bombs have stopped dropping. Many men die in war but don’t drop until years later. They are not remembered or honored on monuments, not mentioned in Memorial Day speeches, but they are war casualties nonetheless – the same as if they’d gotten a bullet through the head.
The hell that was served to the youth of my generation was that we were brought up in the era shortly after World War II. Our country was basking in the glory of a war well fought and won. A war fought with rectitude, for righteous reasons. We were weaned on John Wayne and Audie Murphy movies, given a glossed-over history of our country in school (and on television), and were totally convinced that we Americans were always the good guys and our government leaders were patriots and therefore would never lie to us. Vietnam made us question all that. We began to rethink everything we learned when we were growing up and in my case anyway, it was bitterly heartbreaking. I, like the majority of Vietnam Vets, was a volunteer. There were other reasons why I joined the army, but one of the main ones was to serve my country. Then I discovered my country wasn’t what I thought it was.
That our leaders would send us into an unwinnable war without a viable exit strategy and without any (or damn little) indoctrination as to why we were being sent I feel was part of the reason we lost. We weren’t motivated. We were simply told that communism was bad and we had to draw the line in Vietnam, domino theory, all of Asia would fall, etc., etc. Turns out the domino theory was dead wrong – after the war, Vietnam went into Cambodia, overthrew Pol Pot’s murderous, communist regime, and reinstalled the monarchy, which is to this day still in power – the exact opposite of the domino theory doctrine.
Regardless of what you thought about the Vietnam War, the fact is that 2,709,918 Americans served in Vietnam, representing almost 10% of their (very large) generation. 40% to 60% of those were either in combat, provided close support, or were regularly exposed to enemy attack. 58,318 names of American men and women who died in the war are etched on the black granite slabs of the Vietnam Veterans Memorial in Washington D.C. 11,465 of those on the wall were not yet 20 years old, still teenagers – 5 of them were just 16 years old. Kids.
It is fitting and important on this Memorial Day, that we take time out from our burgers and beer to remember the people who gave their lives for this country. To remember their deaths in all its raw ugliness. Remember that for every name on the wall, there was a family back home – wives, girlfriends, children, and friends affected by their death. Remember that it could have been you or someone in your family. Remember that our leaders sent tens of thousands of young men and women to their deaths in the prime of their lives. To remember that it can and will happen again – indeed, still is happening. Remember that unless we put an end to war, it will surely put an end to us all.
Put yourself in their place.
From the author:
I spent a year and a day in Vietnam with the U.S. Army’s 1st Cavalry Division. I was in Charlie Company, 1st Batallion, 12th Cavalry Regiment (Airborne), from May 1966 to May 1967. Our base camp, Camp Radcliff was in the central highlands of Vietnam outside the small farming village of An Khe (now a town of over 50,000). We were on field operations almost continuously during the year I was there, with only a few short breaks. Our operations were in the provinces of the central coast and the central highlands. Of all the firefights and skirmishes I was in, this night a LZ Bird was the most intense and the most horrifying. I was 19 years old at the time and it has colored my entire adult life since. When I saw the inhumanity, brutality and ugliness of war up close, it turned me into a lifelong pacifist. I realized that though there are things worth fighting for, most of our wars are based on lies and started for reasons and ideas that are just plain wrong. If the human race is to survive, we need to find a way to get along together, or we’re all going to die together.
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Very honest, forthright and well-written article. And I agree whole-heartedly to the opinions. I had very good, relatively safe duty in DaNang (’69-70) for a year but, looking back, also realize that the whole endeavor was about the military industrial complex profiteering, not at all what we were told at the time. I too think that WWII was the last “legitimate” war we were engaged in and everything since has been about the oligarchal, for-profit war industry, lining the pockets of the corporate leaders, politicians and Wall Street/share holders who have no sense of decency. It’s disgusting….
Jon Jager
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This is very well written and a great tribute to all that served. I fortunately did not have to, I received a 1-H class when I got my draft card in ’72. The one thing Nixon did was get out of Vietnam. I did have 2 brothers that served. Both came home. One brought Agent Orange with him.
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Dear warrior now life long pacifist,
Please go and tell Humas to” just get along together”.
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When I came back home from Vietnam, I got a job in a bank. One day out of the blue my boss says You know the guys in Vietnam will not be missed. To this day a regret not hitting hm.
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It has been said, “only the dead will see the end of war”. As long as there is human government there will be war and death. This is because the entire human race is infected with a dreadful sinfulness which brings us death. But the fact of the matter is, there is a Savior who is Christ the Lord. He is coming back to this world in the fullness of time and the government will be upon His shoulder! Only then will the swords be turned to plows and war will be no more. “Looking for that blessed hope, and the glorious appearing of the great God and our Saviour Jesus Christ…” Titus 2:13
Spent a year, 11B 2/327th 101st Airborne 1969-70.
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You nailed it…the life of a boonie rat in Nam. We also worked the Central Highlands and fought NVA soldiers in the jungles and low level mountains where they stayed among gigantic boulders the size of small homes running down their sides. The enemy lived and worked from these spaces located in the Binh Dinh Province we worked on, in and around Hill 474. They were in the nooks and crannies with a running stream. Powdered CS and JP4 were used to extract them from these hiding and firing positions. We later went into the NVA haven of Cambodia and lost eight young men in a five hour firefight May 10, 1970….Leslie H. Sabo KIA MOH recipient. The Vietnam War was a nasty, filthy , heartbreaking bloody war like no other. We did not have McDonald’s, Burger King’s or Subway eateries.
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I served for a while with one of those 8 that were killed that day in Cambodia. Ernie Moore. He was transferred out from my outfit (2/327th — and actually at the last minute in my place — I actually had the honor some years ago now to meet his widow). Anyway, they were the 3/506th 101st May 1970.
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I searched in the Cav’s airborne brigade, too–C/2/8 from 6-1-66 to 6-1-67. Charlie Co. was on LZ Pony when you guys were on Bird when it was overrun down to one 105mm. Proud of my service. Thanks for the great article. Steve Saunders
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This is one of the best descriptions of what it is to be a soldier in war. I can add nothing to what it says and simply thank the author for writing and publishing it.
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What a story. I was in III Corps as a grunt, 2/12/25th. Never experience anything near this gruesome.
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It is refreshing to see a brutally honest description of the war in contrast to the romanticized versions that favor the nationalistic fervor that is in vogue in some political circles.
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Having read DISPATCHES it puts the reader inside the head of the solider. An uncomfortable place to be. Yet it is needed to understand, very little, what they went through. Nothing can take the place of firsthand experience. Being able to empathize helps to help the soldier.
Time to reread Herr’s book. Some books enlighten years later, Living life helps to understand the unspoken word. Somethings cannot be described.
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I think the article is spot-on. The politicians were responsible for over 58,000 young Americans being killed and never had the guts to tell the truth about any of it. I was 20 years old with a young wife and son when I was drafted into the army. Taken away from my family and friends, trained to be a killer and sent to a bullshit war built on lies. I served honorably but came home a different person. A man that my wife and family was terrified of. FOR WHAT?
I tried to pretend that I did what I did for “my country”. I would readily fight for my country, but that sure as hell was not what we did in Vietnam.
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